She was standing in front of a mirror and asking how can it be like this, how can this life was became a burden on her thought and asking what is truly life in socialism where one human is connected to others. Loving, being in love or even falling into deepest love and end up in missery.
"I love today, where I'd put my feet to stand and no body was holding my arms. I'd just wear my shoes in case I need to run and I need to step crossing the reality which I'll meet after the minutes my written plans as an argue to my mind".
Then I took a coffee not far from my stand, it's bitter definetely as usual it became my strength and my vision on life. I moved my arm as the process of life and hard works that I have been doing all this time. I poured a cup of hot water and drink this life inside my coffee, there are nothing different with the last day and it is regular things to do in the morning. The thing made difference is now I'm standing in front of the mirror which I bought from some friend who named a friend.
"I can't take my eyes off the mirror, I'm able to see inside my self, even it couldn't answered all my question but I'm freeze and doesn't move after drank a cup of regular coffee. What's wrong with me? If there is a connection between human beings why I couldn't choose? what I am? and where I'd stand while everybody I knew was left me for nothing. They came and go soon I'm necessary needed, is it humanity?".
She's asking to the mirror and watching how her shadow asked the same questions to her selves. She's standing while her shadow was watching her.
"Is it my fault if others loving me while I couldn't gave it back? am I has no right to refused all the thing that I didn't like and choose who's I'm preferring to love? am I the victim of my own which built on my character where I'd put my self as human who tried the best for my self? who are you? you're not my self who can understand more than I do. I do has my own life and everything is running on my path and why you're inside my selves and taking what I shouldn't think of? What are you?".
Listen to all those question the shadow now is crying, she bow and stopped looking at the mirror. the tears are falling flowing like a river which met the ocean, She's still standing and her feet are shaking now. She dropped her kneel to the floor and still able to see her reflection on the mirror.
After hours she's kneel down and stopped to cry she held the surface of the mirror.
"If I am a human being.... what should I become after this? where friends become an enemy because of my cause even I'd never realized what I've done to them. Where a love inside of me is torching me as a fire where I should sacrifice my selves to be on the fire, indeed I'm burning but then I should die because of the heat. Should I become a person who hate the night and start to wish that the day will never rain and I can see the sun every moment of my life?. What I am now?. I do not need any judgement or value from others because I love my self as an egoism of knowing my self. Tell me if I was wrong!".
The day are never be forever on the daylight, it rotating following the times. As her shadow now become old and dirty because of un-answered questions. Where did the answers? or it only reflected by a reality of judgement, where others only made a judgement without knowing ourselves?. What is true reality? which one is the truth and lies?.
The mirror also silent and which side we should look at?. is true we're a victims?. why we were made us a victims? we were made a plan and made an option, but is it our power to make it real? hardworks is only applications where we should enter the process while the result is never know. why us often make a discourse and made our self within the pain while we are able to stand and erase those sorrow and just be today?.
Where is actually the mistakes?
"I can't take my eyes off the mirror, I'm able to see inside my self, even it couldn't answered all my question but I'm freeze and doesn't move after drank a cup of regular coffee. What's wrong with me? If there is a connection between human beings why I couldn't choose? what I am? and where I'd stand while everybody I knew was left me for nothing. They came and go soon I'm necessary needed, is it humanity?".
She's asking to the mirror and watching how her shadow asked the same questions to her selves. She's standing while her shadow was watching her.
"Is it my fault if others loving me while I couldn't gave it back? am I has no right to refused all the thing that I didn't like and choose who's I'm preferring to love? am I the victim of my own which built on my character where I'd put my self as human who tried the best for my self? who are you? you're not my self who can understand more than I do. I do has my own life and everything is running on my path and why you're inside my selves and taking what I shouldn't think of? What are you?".
Listen to all those question the shadow now is crying, she bow and stopped looking at the mirror. the tears are falling flowing like a river which met the ocean, She's still standing and her feet are shaking now. She dropped her kneel to the floor and still able to see her reflection on the mirror.
After hours she's kneel down and stopped to cry she held the surface of the mirror.
"If I am a human being.... what should I become after this? where friends become an enemy because of my cause even I'd never realized what I've done to them. Where a love inside of me is torching me as a fire where I should sacrifice my selves to be on the fire, indeed I'm burning but then I should die because of the heat. Should I become a person who hate the night and start to wish that the day will never rain and I can see the sun every moment of my life?. What I am now?. I do not need any judgement or value from others because I love my self as an egoism of knowing my self. Tell me if I was wrong!".
The day are never be forever on the daylight, it rotating following the times. As her shadow now become old and dirty because of un-answered questions. Where did the answers? or it only reflected by a reality of judgement, where others only made a judgement without knowing ourselves?. What is true reality? which one is the truth and lies?.
The mirror also silent and which side we should look at?. is true we're a victims?. why we were made us a victims? we were made a plan and made an option, but is it our power to make it real? hardworks is only applications where we should enter the process while the result is never know. why us often make a discourse and made our self within the pain while we are able to stand and erase those sorrow and just be today?.
Where is actually the mistakes?
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